I guess we all have good days and bad days and I have been having a few bad ones, but I asked the inner council to assign an investigator to find out why. This is a serious problem.
The investigator found pain.
Pain has a way of making me want to just curl up and do nothing and not move even if I am not all that conscious of the pain. Pain also drains my energy and makes me feel exhausted. I had been ignoring the pain. Sometimes when we have pain we tend to shrink from it and just ignore it rather than address it.
The first pain I found of course was the one I was aware of in my jaw. That was effecting my attitude, which instead of being grateful that I was getting my teeth taken care of at a great discount rate at that clinic, I was feeling aggravated because I was having a hard time opening my mouth to eat. Next, I found pain in my feet and toes which usually mean the end result of my spinal alignment being out or some other problem that was interrupting my flow of energy. Then I found areas under stress on my hips. I applied pressure and massage to them, and it gave me great relief and released a flow of energy to my legs. I could use a good massage or chiropractor. I like massage better, but for now, my own massaging of those painful areas is really helping and is all I can do.
It seems like we naturally shrink from pain instead of addressing it head on. Ignoring a problem will not correct it. But the pain was draining my energy and restricting my movement. I did not want to exercise and I could not find the energy to do so.
Now that my inner investigator has discovered the problem, I intend to address it directly. I will massage my hips and do some stretching and moving. I also drank a 5-hour energy supplement this morning which has a lot of vitamin B in it to see if some of my energy will return. I got through my 5 rites but they were difficult and I did not do 21 of each one. Maybe I will do them again this evening. This first 9 days of mission 2 have not seen much progress in shredding pounds. It is amazing how fast time seems to pass when you are moving slow. Time also passes when every day is too routine. I need to put some variety in each day so that when I look back on my week I see more than the same day every day.
I must make a point to lead a more exciting and eventful life in order to monitor my mental machinery. Are you in a rut? Sometimes I feel like I am. Lean 57 mentioned that I might be bored. There could be some truth in that, because when I am excited about some creative project I am never bored and I am very active even if I am in pain, I just keep going and going.
So the treatment I am going to give myself is to address the pain, treat it, and get interested in and excited about a project that will take me out of this bored state of mind and into action. This is what the power of the WILL is for. It is the power to consciously direct your attention to something of your own choice. It is the power of decision and direction. Instead of just plodding through the day, I must take the lead and direct my thoughts and actions to something interesting and to solving problems instead of ignoring them and vegging out watching CSI.
At least that is what the nag told me. Welcome back Nag!
My Inner Nag Psyche
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